Tomorrow’s coming like a freight train

18 01 2011

I put in my notice at work today. My boss said he would give me a good reference even if I didn’t give two weeks notice (just like a stripper, huh?). I am sitting at home. While acting like I was cleaning house I got most of my stuff situated so I can just grab it tomorrow. I am a little sad but know that the further away from him I get, the better off I will be. I sent out some resumes at work today. I have an interview set up somewhere for Thursday or Friday. I’m supposed to call when I get back to South Carolina. In the midst of all this, it is important that I keep a paycheck stub. I feel a little sense of sadness that it didn’t work but I am confident I am making the right decision. Not only for me but for my daughter and — I hate to say it, even him. Both of us our miserable. He looks at me with such contempt. I can say in my heart of hearts I was faithful. I can say I tried. I even quit dancing. I put myself in counseling to work on my issues thinking if I can fix me I could fix us. I can’t fix everything. I am going back to South Carolina and am going to start my life over. A healthy life. One where I am single, independent, and while I may moonlight here and there — am building something other than being in the strip club everyday. I feel it’s important for me to keep a real job even if it’s just entry level. Not only for my custody hearing but for myself so that I can feel a sense of accomplishment.

I will be leaving in the morning. He leaves for work at 5:30 a.m. I will be spending the next hour or two packing my stuff. We are supposed to have freezing rain here. Worst case scenario, if the weather gets bad I will get a motel. As long as I am anywhere but here. I think this year I am going to make it a point to go to Mardi Gras. I have always wanted to go to Mardi Gras and even New Orleans for that matter. I feel good and am optimistic about the future. I will keep you guys posted even if it’s just short little posts here and there. Thanks for all the supportive emails and comments. The only reason I keep writing is because you guys keep reading. 🙂




One response

18 01 2011

Good Luck On Things and Be Safe. We will talk to you soon.

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