Today’s Song is Dedicated To Phillip… Love you baby!

25 09 2008

I went to work last night. It was a decent night. I left with $436. I got on the floor at 9:00 p.m. and checked out at 12.  One guy tried to sneak his finger up my ass. That pissed me off. Then another dumbass customer tried to suck my nipples. Then I met another guy who tried to be my boyfriend. He’s like, “I know you get asked out all the time… But if you’re looking for a good man…” You know the rest.

But let me back this up. I got married yesterday. Yep, Phillip and I got hitched. I don’t give a fuck what you think. Make your comments, talk your shit. Phillip is good to me and for once I finally got it right. I mean, how many men can you beat in the face with a shoe and they don’t touch you? I haven’t worked because he has taken care of everything since I met him. He’s good to me. I have decided if I can’t make this work, I can’t make anyting work. So I got get my marriage certificate tomorrow and my military i.d., dental, medical, vision, etc. But that is not the reason why… He tolerates me well, and well… We all know how I am. No one is going to put up with my shit. But I realize I have some changing to do as well if I am going to make this marriage succeed. He asked me to marry him Saturday.

This industry is lonely. Every employee from the dancer, to the parking lot attendant, to the manager has relationship problems. No one trusts you. No one believes you. They think you are a prostitute, do drugs, and manipulate. Not just dancers either. Everyone questions your intentions. You are not a normal part of society. Nobody accepts you. The only people that come close to understanding or accepting you are those that have an understanding of what I like to call Stripperville. And nine times out of ten those people have some hardcore issues themselves. Am I wrong? I don’t think so. There are always those isolated cases but for the most part I am correct.

I have decided while Phillip is deployed I am going to concentrate strictly on my money. I know this sounds like an oxymoron but I am actually a very faithful woman when I love someone. I have danced long enough that I tune my job out. I have enjoyed the vacation but now it’s time to get back to work. I am determined. My attitude is — if you aren’t trying to help me improve myself then fuck you. No one is going to set me back or waste my time.

Oh, and I dedicate today’s song to Phillip. Next time I post I am going to post pics of my arm. It is still healing. Until tomorrow or the day after… Peace the fuck out!




One response

25 09 2008
Joey Faircloth

hey i just wanted to come by and check in on you. i was a little worried after i read the blog about whores who calls strippers..but after reading your latest blog..i just want to say congratulations….and fuck it if someone leaves a negative comment..your happy and you know whats best for congrats

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